So Tired
Do you ever have days where you are just so tired of waiting for Heaven?
Boy, I do. There are days when you look around at your own little world and all you can see are the problems. I say to myself, "Oh if only Jesus would come back today, all this would be solved".
As we struggle with family problems, health issues, financial needs, personal battles with sin or temptation; we tend to think that we just can’t go on like this.
I keep hearing people say that God won’t give us more than we can handle. But there is so much that happens in our lives that we cannot handle unless we give it to the Lord. We, in our own strength cannot face many of the things that happen in our lives.
Just as we must turn to God and put our trust in the work that Jesus did through His death, burial and resurrection to save us; we must put our trust in God to provide the love and patience that we need to deal with our children. We must put our trust in God to provide the physical healing that we need when we are sick. Sometimes doctors can provide a cure, but only God does the actual healing. We must put our trust in God to provide our financial needs. He is our source not our job or own efforts. It is only our complete trust in God that will break the bondage of sin in our lives. It is only through Him that we can resist temptation.
On those days when I feel a groaning in my soul and a longing to be in Heaven I have to struggle to find that quiet place where I can meet with my Lord. It is those days when I need Him the most that it is hardest to take time to stop and pray. It is those days when I, like Peter, take my eyes off of Jesus and begin to sink. I slowly begin to sink into a sea of depression. I see myself with no hope, no way to escape. Thoughts like "What’s the use", "What difference does it make", Who cares", race through my mind and then that still small voice says, "Daughter, I am with you. I love you with an everlasting love." (Jeremiah 31:3)
Why do I have this groaning in my flesh? Why am I so anxious to be in Heaven with my Lord? The answer is because I am tired of falling short. I know in my heart that I am not giving my all to the Lord. I seem to pick and choose which parts of God’s Word that I am going to obey. Some things in His Word scare me. I am afraid that I cannot do what He will ask me to do.
I have used the word "I" nine times in the above paragraph. When I forget that it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives within me; (Galatians 2:20) that is when the fear comes in. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13) It is hard to live by faith when I can see with my eyes of flesh all the junk in my life. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)
Boy, I do. There are days when you look around at your own little world and all you can see are the problems. I say to myself, "Oh if only Jesus would come back today, all this would be solved".
As we struggle with family problems, health issues, financial needs, personal battles with sin or temptation; we tend to think that we just can’t go on like this.
I keep hearing people say that God won’t give us more than we can handle. But there is so much that happens in our lives that we cannot handle unless we give it to the Lord. We, in our own strength cannot face many of the things that happen in our lives.
Just as we must turn to God and put our trust in the work that Jesus did through His death, burial and resurrection to save us; we must put our trust in God to provide the love and patience that we need to deal with our children. We must put our trust in God to provide the physical healing that we need when we are sick. Sometimes doctors can provide a cure, but only God does the actual healing. We must put our trust in God to provide our financial needs. He is our source not our job or own efforts. It is only our complete trust in God that will break the bondage of sin in our lives. It is only through Him that we can resist temptation.
On those days when I feel a groaning in my soul and a longing to be in Heaven I have to struggle to find that quiet place where I can meet with my Lord. It is those days when I need Him the most that it is hardest to take time to stop and pray. It is those days when I, like Peter, take my eyes off of Jesus and begin to sink. I slowly begin to sink into a sea of depression. I see myself with no hope, no way to escape. Thoughts like "What’s the use", "What difference does it make", Who cares", race through my mind and then that still small voice says, "Daughter, I am with you. I love you with an everlasting love." (Jeremiah 31:3)
Why do I have this groaning in my flesh? Why am I so anxious to be in Heaven with my Lord? The answer is because I am tired of falling short. I know in my heart that I am not giving my all to the Lord. I seem to pick and choose which parts of God’s Word that I am going to obey. Some things in His Word scare me. I am afraid that I cannot do what He will ask me to do.
I have used the word "I" nine times in the above paragraph. When I forget that it is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives within me; (Galatians 2:20) that is when the fear comes in. I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:13) It is hard to live by faith when I can see with my eyes of flesh all the junk in my life. Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. (Hebrews 11:1)
One day I will be in Heaven with my Lord, but right now I have a ministry. God has called me to minister to my husband, children and grandchildren; to my church family, to my neighbors and to the stranger. There are days when I am so tired, so confused or so stubborn that I just know I won’t make it.
Then I remember how much He loves me. I remember the sacrifices that Jesus made for me. I realize that God the Father spared nothing to save me and I give it all to Him. I don’t understand the how or the why but I know that He will take care of the family problems, health issues, financial needs, and my personal battles with sin or temptation. Do not be afraid nor dismayed…, for the battle is not yours, but God’s. (II Chronicles 20:15)
And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Now to our God and Father be glory forever and ever. Amen. (Philippians 4:19-20)
by Nana 7/18/2008 (Toni T Tilley)
And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Now to our God and Father be glory forever and ever. Amen. (Philippians 4:19-20)
by Nana 7/18/2008 (Toni T Tilley)
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